If his memoir can be believed and even if it cant be its a very entertaining read he lived double lives within double lives a talented advertising copywriter by day and a popular drag queen by night he was also a major alcohol and cocaine abuser and the inamorato a of a professional male escort. Buy the paperback book i am not myself these days a memoir by josh kilmer purcell at indigoca canadas largest bookstore free shipping and pickup in store on eligible orders the new york times bestselling darkly funny memoirof a young new yorkers daring dual life advertising art director by dayglitter dripping drag queen and nightclub beauty pageant hopeful by night was asmash . I am not myself these days follows a glittering journey through manhattans dark underbelly a shocking and surreal world where alter egos reign and subsist barely on dark wit and chemicalsa tragic romantic comedy where one begins by rooting for the survival of the relationship and ends by hoping someone simply survives. I am not myself these days a memoirand millions of other books are available for amazon kindle. Josh kilmer purcells memoir i am not myself these days is not quite either yes it is basically a very sad story told with the self deprecating humor one would expect but kilmer purcell fails to fully explore the origins of his alcoholism or his co dependency with jack or push the absurdity of his tale to its limits the memoir follows kilmer purcell newly arrived in new york city a